I did write this on September 12th, 2008
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My friends,

Little angels can change ur life in a second... At least, for me, that happened

Some years ago, when I was 21 (I am 26, right now) I met a really cute baby who changed my thought about maternity. The story in more or less words is as follows:

I always thought that maternity wouldn`t be an option for me!!!... I was sure I couldn`t be a good mother because of different reasons: I was a very insecure person, I didn`t enjoy my childhood, I thought that mothers cannot make mistakes and I ALWAYS MAKE MISTAKES!!!...etc.

This is easy to understand since the world is getting so evil: Destruction, Violence, Wars, Criminals, Poverty, Hate, Sin.  However, I hadn`t realized that I had been selfish with the called that God has had for me: To be an amazing Wife-Mom.

I know that I am not married but, I know that God was showing me How scared I was about the idea of having kids... I AM A DAUGHTER OF GOD!!!...HOW CAN I BE A CHICKEN??... that's not a christian heart... and..let me tell u how I figured it out.

I had had a very hard day at school. The day was so warm and sunny and I had had a terrible headache. I used to carry ALL my books and material at school and I needed to go home early that evening because I had a lot tasks to finish.

I couldn`t get a ride and I took a bus that was full ... "What a LUCKY girl!!!" - I said. My book bag was killing my back and a girl asked if she could help me with that... "Oh, no...it's too heavy" - I replayed. Plus, she was carrying a little baby and for a moment, when I looked at his little eyes, I forgot about all my lack of strenght.

Since I never thought about the idea of becoming a mom, I hadn`t spent time for thinking about the miracle of a new life...

The little baby was pretty cute... His innocence made me think about the good side of This world... My heart was feeling something warm inside... I couldn`t tell u why... but... that was awesome.... I felt that God was going to talk to me...

I was asking some things about the little baby to his mom... She was smilling the whole time... She was so happy!!!... She was part of the miracle of sharing life... She was part of the Plan of God.... I was thinking inside: " What about if Maternity is an option for me??"... "What do u think God?"... "Would I become a good mom??".... U KNOW WHAT WAS THE ANSWER FROM GOD??...

All of a sudden, the little baby touched one of my finger with his little hand and IN THAT MOMENT, I felt how I received a message in my heart. I felt how this little baby was the angel that God had for changing my life. That little baby talked to me through his love and smile.

It was time for saying bye to these people and the little kid didn`t want to let me go... I knew that I had to tell him that I had gotten the message and when I say "Now, I do not feel scared", he let me go, he opened his little hand and I kept smiling...

I am not going to forget that day...

p.s. I wrote this, because SOMEDAY in the future, when I get married and I can have the blessing of having kids...I want them to know that they are going to be the most happiest gift in my life....